Hmm?

So I just had an idea as far as wedding dates go. My cousin has been planning her wedding for a while now and I remember her mentioning something about weekday weddings being cheaper. So here is what I was thinking, since we are already married it doesn't really need to be a wam bam celebration where everything happens in one night. We can do the ceremony on our anniversary--although I'd still have to wait 2 years because next August is when Adam is supposed to be getting out of the military so he'll be busy with that--and then have the reception the weekend after. I'll have to talk to Adam about it but I don't see anything wrong with it. Maybe do a dinner after the ceremony so that night isn't so short? Hm, I guess we'll see. I'll just start buying bridal magazines again and leave them all over the apartment and make Adam help me. :D I know one thing, I want to pretend we aren't already married and still have bachelor and bachelorette parties. ;)

Anywho, Courtney and I are back in Utah until tomorrow. She had her surgery yesterday, it went alright. They had to bring in another surgeoun because her appendix was still inflamed and what not (she had an appendectomy). But she was discharged last night after they finally listened to her and gave her percocet for her pain meds. I'm not looking forward to driving all the way back to CO. I hate driving.

But in 2-3 weeks, Adam will be home! FINALLY!!!

Wedding Bells?

So Adam and I never had a "real" wedding. The day we got married we literally rolled out of bed, put some jeans and a t-shirt on and went to the courthouse alone. We were so tired and sleepy (this was the day after he graduated basic/AIT and we didn't get home til 4 a.m. and by the time we got to sleep we maybe had 3 hours of sleep on top of jet lag from flying from Kentucky to Oregon) I don't even remember what vows they used. Which sort of depresses me. And if I can't remember, I know he can't. So anyway, we've always said we'll do the quickie so we can afford to be together and then do a real wedding like, the next summer. Well 2 years later and we still haven't even started planning. We keep saying "we need to start planning". He says it too. Actually he says it more often than I do lol. But anyway, I'm finally going to start. But the question is where do I begin? I already know I want it in the summer, and our wedding anniversary now is August 3rd. But we are going to want to party and the next time August 3rd falls on a weekend is 2012, on a Friday. 3 years from now. Which that's good, gives us time to save and plan, but its so far away! I really don't want to wait that long. So here's my dilemma, I think once we figure this out everything will be easier: Do I wait and have it on our anniversary? Or do we just pick a date and not wait? And then where? Unfortunately, Adam doesn't have a ton of family and friends to invite like I do, so it'd make more sense to have it in Washington...and there are a few places that would be pretty enough. I just don't really want it in Washington. Here is what I want:

Big wedding at the Royal Hawaiian Hotel in Waikiki Beach in Honolulu, HI. I want to mix party with elegant and intimate. I want an amazing photographer who's pictures will look like they belong in an art museum and a great DJ who can play music that will get everyone on the dance floor. Then I want a honeymoon at a Sandals resort. A room with one of those private pools and it's all-inclusive.

Buuuut, my dream and my budget don't go hand in hand. The Royal Hawaiian is expensive and not everyone will be able to fly to Hawaii. Although just to get married in Hawaii, I'd be ok with a small wedding. The amazing photographer will cost me all my limbs. I have friends who are great photographers, but I want them to have fun, relax and let loose. Not worry about getting tons of pictures for me. The DJ would be the only easy deal out of it. Then the honeymoon, what I want is $6000+ easily.

I need to win the lottery.

Getting excited!

So Adam and I have been having an issue lately, nothing I want to talk about, really it's just stupid on both our parts. I did something I shouldn't have done, but in my eyes it wasn't a big deal. Apparently to him it was and blah blah blah. Anyway needless to say at this point in time, he's ripped up his re-enlistment papers and said F-it. As much as it would be better for us financially for him to stay in, another deployment would just be too rough. We'd pull through, but this one was pretty smooth sailing and next time around, it wont be. Anyway, with that said, FRG has started posting the flight manifests as they get them set up. Adam's flight isn't on there yet, but I *think* I see a few friends on there (they are posting them with the first 3 letters of the last name and the last 4 digits of their socials...so without knowing our friend's socials, I don't know for sure...) but nonetheless I'm freakin stoked and will be checking the FRG website religiously until he comes home (of course it can change and due to OPSEC I probably can't post dates on here for you all to share my excitement...).

So with the guys' homecoming, comes a military ball. We went to one last summer before deployment and it blew. The food was ok, it was those pretty plates that cost a fortune and you get hardly anything...and I was pregnant. Then the music started and the first song was the Electrice Slide, which no one was electric sliding, but LINE DANCING?!!? Then the next two songs were a slow dance and old people songs...basically stuff you can't dance too. By that time we were fed up and left. That was hosted by his old unit, so I'm giving his new unit a try and ho9pefully they'll do good. I found my dress today though, on clearance at David's Bridal for $80! Woo!! I almost feel its too formal, but I think that's because last year's dress was just a cocktail dress that cost my broke-ass like $30. So here's some pics of it. They were taken for Courtney's cell, while she was holding Lili, who was bouncing around, so they are a tad blurry, but you get the idea :)

I'll upload better pictures when I actually get it, it's on lay away since I'm saving money for....

HANSON IS COMING TO DENVER!!!!!! Agh I'm so freakin excited. Fanclub members' presale starts tomorrow so I'm hoping I have enough money for them! Courtney is going with me, the concer is November 3rd and I can't freakin wait! Gosh I seem more excited about Hanson than Adam, but that's because I have a date for Hanson. As soon as I have a date and can share it with you, you'll probably hear my screams of excitement through my typing! :) So yea, lots to look forward to!!! Plus the concert is 2 days before Lili's first birthday! November is gong to be a great month!

More stolen stuff and Harry Potter.

Ok so not only did my iPod get stolen, so did Lili's diaper bag. Seriously who the hell steals someone's diaper bag. Yes a lot of women put their wallets in there for less to carry around, but I'm not dumb enough to do that and one quick glance in there would have told you that. Once I discovered that, it wasn't about the iPod, but the fact that someone stole my daughter's belongings. We were just so dumbfounded at who would stoop that low. This was yesterday, and then last night a friend's car doors were opened...he didn't lock the door and when he went outside to go home, the door was open. From what he could see, nothing had been taken/messed with so that's good but still. This is messed up. I went and told the front office today and they are going to have the security people keep a better look on my area of the complex.

So to make my day a litte better, I went to the midnight showing of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince last night. I always get so frustrated with the HP movies. I've read the books sooo many times I can rip the movies apart, but this one was the worst when it came to accuracey. It's still a good movie, hilarious compared to the rest, but they left a LOT of important events out that I feel are important to the last book. Those of you who read the books will probably agree. Either way, I want to go see it again. I love Harry Potter, I'm going to be so bummed when Part 2 of the last movie ends. Then it really will all be over. :( Ohh but the Harry Potter theme park opens next year (or at least its supposed to). I can't wait for that!!!

Yay school! Boo theives!

So I'm very angry. Some jackass stole my iPod out of my car. Yes, I was stupid enough to leave it somewhere visible but still. My car wasn't broken into and the only time I leave it unlocked is when I have my hands full and I go to my door, unload my hands and lock it from there (it does the beep so I know it locks). So someone saw me leave my car unlocked for a second and got in there and got my iPod and left. They didn't go through my car, otherwise they would have found my GPS and taken that too, but I still have that. There is a slight possibility its still in there, but I left it next to my shifter (which is in the middle in between the seats) and it was still plugged into the lighter outlet. I did a quick search when I got out at the workforce center today, but it wasn't there. :( We are going to clean out the car and double check when it stops raining. But I think its gone and I can't believe someone would do that. My complex is supposed to be safe, its gated at night and there is some sort of security, though I don't think its on sight security because I've never seen them. I just have a number to call them. There is also a lot of military who live here, not that that really means anything since there are a ton of "shitbags" in the military.

Anyway so I'm done with my rant...for now.

I enrolled in school today. So that's good. I'm kind of looking forward to it now. Although what I'm going for isn't exactly what I wanted. I wanted to continue my medical assisting. Buuut with the program I am in for military spouses (they pay like $3000 worth of my tuition) I have to be done by June 2010. The MA program would go way past that, so I picked the aspect of MA that I loved, Phlebotomy. But when I got to the workforce center today she told me that CNA would get me done by June and it would make me marketable. So I'm doing CNA and Phlebotomy. I'm not really looking forward to the CNA clinicals. They go to like, retirement/nursing homes and take care of old people. Which is fine, but I don't know how I can handle bathing them and changing old people's diapers. I give props to those who do it and enjoy that, but for me that would be awkward, and I change enough diapers at home. But I will do it, not complain, and just try to get a job in Phlebotomy when I'm done. So this time next year, I should be done with school and have a job much better than retail!!

Speaking of retail jobs, I have a job interview at The Buckle on Wednesday. I hope I get it. I put my availabilty as 9-5:30 Monday-Friday. I don't really have daycare/a sitter for weekends, but come clinical time for the CNA classes, I will be doing those on the weekends anyway. Those start in September after Adam gets home, so he can watch Lilian. They seem to be ok with that since they called me back within 2 hours of me submitting my application online. Wish me luck!! :)

Die TriCare DIE!!

Idiots. That's who work there. Not to mention the whole system is just dumb. They have different regions. When moving to VA I had to change regions. Moving back to CO I had to change back to the first region...do they not realize how much of a pain in the ass that is, being military, who move a lot? Because then you have to WAIT for it to go through. And then you have to have a referral to go see a specialist....which is like every other insurance, BUT when I had been going to an OB/GYN for the past 7 months because I was pregnant, why on earth would I need to get checked out by my primary again?? That was beyond dumb. Anyway, my new complaint about them:

I went in to TriCare the first week I was back in CO to switch things back over so I could set up Lilian's 9 month check up. I sat down with a lady, we went over everything and got it all filled out. Well I get a packet in the mail. In it is another packet, the same one I filled out with the lady in the office. With the packet is a letter stating I need to refill it out and sent it back in with a list of possible reasons why I need to do this. Two of them are checked, one is saying it wasn't signed the first time, the second was saying something wrong with the fax transmission and they didn't get all the papers. Ok that part isn't necessarily someone's mistake, fax machines act up all the time. But I've come to the conclusion that I did sign the papers, but the pages that have the signatures were the ones that didn't make it. So instead of giving me a call and telling me this, they take the snail way, so its taking me longer to get Lilian's approval. So this morning I decided to call the TriCare office on post to see if they could just re-fax it (I had already talked to a TriCare agent who deals with the paperwork and she said I could do that). Well apparently, the one on post (which is located in the base hospital) is walk-in only....with no phone numbers for me to call (I talked to the hospital phone operator). So I get to drive all the way there just to tell them to re-fax my applications....

I HATE YOU TRICARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All I have to say is I better not have to wait forever. I will raise hell. All they need to do is pull my apps and re-fax them. I will raise hell if they try to make me wait.

4th of July, MJ, Big Girl and School.

So I'm already slacking on this thing. I guess I just don't feel like my rambles are worth posting half the time. But oh well. So Friday, July 3rd, Lili and I drove to Salt Lake City to kidnap Courtney. I ended up picking her up in Green River (she was camping with her Dad who lives in Vegas) and we drove to SLC to get her things. We stayed for the 4th (since last year I spent my 4th driving from Washington back to Colorado so I wanted to find some firework shows...btw boo on Fort Vancouver cancelling this year's show!!). Anyway, my friend Angie's little sister is pregnant with a girl so I had gone through Lilian's things and passed on what she doesn't wear (that wasn't too cute to part with or sentimental) and things she just doesn't use anymore (her bottle warmer, tub, bouncy chair). We dropped that off for her and went to the mall downtown. Being broke we just got a Starbucks, window shopped then decided to walk the like, 10 blocks or so to the Mormon Temple. We got there and saw they had tours. I am not Mormon. Courtney was raised, but never baptised, Mormon. So she new enough to not let them pester us too much (I never admitted to them that I wasn't Mormon, I just kept saying "I'll read Courtney's Book for Mormon..."). But it was beautiful. I put pics on my myspace (www.myspace.com/heavenseyes). So after that, it was time to find a show. We ended up going to one in Park City, where we picked up Courtney's Friend Mikela (she was visiting family there, she's from Colorado Springs too) and we found the park where they had a show. It was sort of like going to Fort Vancouver, minus the vendors, the ridiculous crowd and the actual show wasn't nearly as long or as extravagant as the Fort's. But it was nice. Lili loved the fireworks, didn't scare her one bit! So the next morning we packed up my Jeep and Courtney drove all the way back to Colorado. We've been lazy the past few days, haven't unpacked or anything, so my apartment is still trashed, but whatever. We'll clean it eventually. :)

So Lilian is now 8 months old (as of the 5th). Its amazing how time flies now. I don't want my baby girl to grow up so fast, but at the same time, its helped this deployment go so much quicker for me. It feels like its only been a week at the most since Adam left. I can't believe he'll be home next month! I am so excited, and seeing all the soldiers in their ACU's (their uniforms for you civilians :D) just gets me more anxious! I'm hoping this payday I'll be able to afford paint to paint in the apartment so I can hang pictures and get the rest of these boxes unpacked. I feel so lazy having this messy place and boxes every where still, but Monday we wanted to relax, Tuesday was Michael Jackson's memorial, which I watched, and bawled. I think the two times I cried the most was when Usher was touching the casket and singing TO MJ instead of the audience and when he broke down at the end and could barely finish. Then Michael's daughter did an impromtu speech where I just lost it. Courtney wasn't home to watch it live and so we watched it again later in the evening and I cried some more...I think I have some of that emotional rollercoaster side effect of pregnancy left...and pregnancy brain. Seriously, I think some of that stuff is permenant. So anyway, all my crying yesterday morning gave me a headache so I just didn't feel up to it. And today I had to run to the WIC office (btw they measured Lilian, she's just about 30 inches long now and 17 lbs 13ozs...she's got tall genes!!!) and then the education office on post. Going back to school next month (if I'm approved of course)!!!

Tonight I actually put Lilian to bed without her bottle! Normally I make her a bottle and give it to her in her crib so she'll fall asleep. But the lady at my WIC appt said that's bad for her teeth, so I gave her a bottle about 30 min before her bed time to work on and at bed time I put her in the crib. She only cried for maybe 15 min before crashing! She did so good!! Such a big girl now!! :)

So anyway, I think that's it for now...I'll try to get on track to update more frequently so I'm writing novels anymore!

Boo.

So no new car. Adam decided not to wait to look into it and spent his time and minutes calling a Jeep dealership here in Colorado. -.- Anyway, he told the guy I'd be calling him, so I did and told him what we wanted. Well he called back later and said our monthly payments would be around $520. Can't afford that right now. Maybe I'll get a miracle job and then we can. Oh but wait, I read on the local news website that the average monthly daycare rate for infants in the state of Colorado is $905. So we are trying to figure out what to do now. All my work experience for the most part is retail. I wouldn't make enough working retail to pay for daycare, let alone anything else we'd need to pay for. I suggested I do my own daycare deal. Watch one or two more kids and charge like $600-$700 a month. That way not only am I making money and not having to pay for daycare, I get to stay home with Lilian. Adam wasn't too fond of that idea though. He's afraid that if something happens to another person's child on my watch, I'll get sued. Which he has a point, but its not like I let kids run around like cave children. I can barely go to the bathroom without taking Lilian with me just so I can keep my eye on her. But we'll see. I really want to stay home and babysit. Or maybe I'll just get super lucky and find a good job. I still have to look into the on-post daycare. Adam keeps hearing its free, I heard it isn't. Hopefully FRG will email me back with a phone number and maybe some answers soon. That'd be nice.

Anyway, I leave Friday the 3rd to drive to Salt Lake City to kindap my friend Courtney. She's coming back here and staying with us until Adam and her bf get home. So that'll be good. And a ton of fun. :D But its an 8-9 hour drive, so probably closer to 10 since I have to stop with Lilian every so often. Then I have to drive her back at the end of July for surgery then we come back here. I'll be done with driving for a while after that lol. Oh I can't wait, seriously, we are like long lost twins born 2 years apart.